I wish I wouldn't suck so much at strategy games - my online football team keeps losing and that depresses me. Usually, their line-up is much better than the one of the opposing team but they will lose nevertheless. Another thing I'm not good at, sigh.

Some days I really feel I am not good at anything and this - as stupid as it is - isn't helping any.

I also feel I am turning into some kind of person I do not want to be. I just think that nothing's really worth an effort anymore, like I used to. So I don't even bother. I remember when I used to be different. Happy (kindasorta but still), rather content and kindly inclined towards people. Gone with the wind.