Aaaaargh!!! Another two hours of my life wasted!!! Feed the fish, feed the fish, feed the fish...It's the Insaniquarium. I really need to stop with those games.

Breaking the law, breaking the law!! (aka Useless Graffiti Fun)

Gdang, gdang

When I woke up, the sun was shining and the sky was blue...by now it's cloudy and almost raining. Sigh. Am still feeling a little bit woozy, but I think the fever has subsided somehow. If you are wondering about the fever because you don't quite know what gdang, gdang means you might try this link for finger-snapping, toe-tapping goodness...gdang, gdang gdig diggi diggi. I laughed so much I nearly choked because it made me cough.

Don't really feel up to putting my closet together. It looms in the corner rather hugely and looks somewhat threatening. My dad said he would come over and put it together, but I am not sure if I can put up with that either. Last time he forgot to put in the back wall ("Instructions are for wusses and wimps, REAL men don't need those") and me and my brother had to take it all apart again...

Hooray...good news on this crappy day (cough, sneeze, shiver)..my Wizard of Oz DVD has arrived at last!!!
Yee haw...*hums* We're off to see the wizard, the wonderful wizard of Oz....Follow the yellow brick road, follow the yellow brick road...follow, follow, follow, follow, follow the yellow brick road...dumdidum

Today I dreamt that I was shot in my leg and bled to death. Not a good start for the day. I am amazed at my inner clock, though, I woke up 15 minutes before the alarm was supposed to go off. And that at 7 a.m.! I had to get up that early because the IKEA people came and brought my new closet. Poor, poor delivery guys...they didn't even have one of those little carts, they carried the whole thing into my room on their backs. Like donkeys. Well, not quite like donkeys, they weren't walking on all fours, but you get the picture.

Once I'm up I have to stay up because I never manage to go back to sleep :( , so I decided to blog. I did for a lengthy amount of time but then decided that what I blogged was too personal to share, so I saved it onto my laptop and deleted the post. Maybe I'll tell you some other time. But then again, maybe not. Some things are better left unsaid, it was more of a cathartic exercise anyway.

Yesterday I was in one of those weird moods..I don't know what they are. They just prompt me to contradict everything in the worst possible way. I hate it when that happens. I'll go into full self-pity mode and state all kinds of "terrible" things about myself while being cranky and irritable. And the damn thing is I notice it happening but can't stop it. Kind of like a train wreck. You know it's horrible but you look anyway. I guess yesterday it stemmed from lack of sleep and my illness...maybe I had a fever (I do now, at least). But I've had those moods occasionally, usually they are triggered when I am frustrated in some way. No, frustrated is not the right word...dammit, where's my dictionary when you need it :) Thwarted? Stupid word anyway... Parried? What I mean is that somebody says something, and they are right on one hand but I don't want to admit to it, and they are wrong on some accounts but I can't find the words to express myself properly because I am too peeved about the first part (which is them being right in case you lost track of that sentence). Frustration is probably the right word for it. And since I can't express what I mean I start venting. On myself. Kind of stupid really. I don't know what that could achieve. Probably it's because I'd like the other person to disagree with me as a sort of positive feedback. "I am stupid." "No, you're not." ("Yay!")

(It also happens when I am really angry. Then I'll say insulting things about the other person. Good thing I rarely get that angry. .. Worst is when angry and frustrated mix. Then I am really out of my mind (I quite literally snap out of it and hear myself saying things I don't want to which is scary). I can be really cold and heartless when it comes to that.)

So what I am really trying to say is this: yes, I am pretty cynical, but really not that negative and cynical as I make myself out to be sometimes. I'm just confrontational. Does that make sense? Maybe, maybe not. Don't forget, I still have a fever :)

Whee!! Bubbles! That cheered me up somehow...sitting on the couch, sneezing my head off...

Let me see if Blogger is working again..it did not want to publish yesterday.

Well, I'm glad to tell you, today I am full-blown sick. I had to go to bed early yesterday because I was feeling so miserable, I slept feeling miserable all the time and I woke up with my head feeling like a big balloon. What really bugs me is that my eyes hurt so much. Since I had that thyroid thing they've been troubling me every time I have a cold. Grrrr.

Colds are really pointless, too. You don't even contribute to your country's economy by visiting a doctor, because what's he going to do about it. Hm. You buy Kleenex and tea a lot, I guess, so that should account for something. And I'm having tea like there's no other beverage to go around.

Probably good that I didn't go out yesterday, because it was April Fools Day and I tend to go "Really? That's amazing!" everytime somebody plays a prank on me. The moment I say it I realize that it's April 1st and try to retract but I still feel stupid.

Being sick also makes me feel cranky all the time, I hate it (which is probably paradox, but there you go). I am also crying at the drop of a hat which makes watching TV somewhat difficult because I'll cry at every second commercial. And the only thing that'll cheer me up, namely the newest episode of Scrubs, still hasn't finished downloading.

It also makes me miserable that there are only five more episodes of Buffy left. You may say: "It's only a TV show" but I've been watching it for 7 seasons now (since 1997). And whenever I was depressed Diana used to say: "Well, on the bright side, there's always the next Buffy episode to look forward too!" What's there to look forward to now? And that's telling you something about my boring and uneventful life.

Food-Eating Battle Monkeys! Try it!

I discovered the reason for my crankiness this morning. I think finally the cold everyone's been dragging around has caught up with me. So I'm sitting on the couch trying to suppress it exploding into a full-blown miserable experience by drinking lots of tea. Mmmmmh, tea. But even though I'm sick I'm in a better mood today. That's at least something.

Yesterday was a crappy day, too. Witnessing all the happy couples at the airport made my head hurt. Then I got home and cleaned the kitchen. As soon as I was finished, I dropped a glass ashtray, scattered everything over the floor and cut my hand on it. Then I went jogging and every 5 minutes I would encounter one of those assholes who yell: Faster! Faster! This pisses me off so much!!! But I think I already covered that on this blog some time ago. I take comfort in the thought, though, that when God decides it's time for another flood, I can outrun the assholes to the last place on the Ark while yelling Faster!! Faster!! Then I wanted to cook something and burnt my hand. Also, my stalker called again. I am beginning to get annoyed with it. He just calls, lets it ring once and hangs up again. Grrrr. At least I got a present from Jule. Forgot it at their place, though. Little elephant, don't worry, I'll come to pick you up!

Holy crap.

This is funny.

Apparently, my roommate met a crazy Basque woman. She called, too, yesterday. It seems it's only men who never call.

Am in a bad mood today. Maybe it's just the woke-up-and-feeling-cranky-thing at the moment and it'll get better later. I'll go and pick up Jule from the airport (she's been to Thailand) Sigh, everybody's life seems more eventful than mine. I need adventure.

Missed daylight savings time today and was late for lunch at my parents'. My roommate hasn't come home since he was out yesterday....hmmm...let's see what he has to tell us :)

Win some, lose some

Won one, lost two. Sigh. Chess might prove to be too exhausting for me. One day, I'll get an ulcer trying to decide which piece to move. I'm not good at decision-making as is.

Shake that booty

Had fun going out tonight. Danced to Swing tunes which always reminds me of this movie. Had a couple of somethings or others which might explain the quality of the post, but I wanted to tell y'all the following as it's driving me nuts:

Early one morning, just as the sun was rising

It's in my ear and won't come out...how could you use a poor maiden so. Apparently, I'm being triggered. Don't be surprised if I rip you head off. If you don't understand this, just ignore it. It's for the true connoisseur only. And now I'm going to bed.