The weekend wasn't really a good one. I'm having real trouble with my final paper and am seriously considering not to write one. What usually happens is that I have a nightmare about not being able to write the paper. Then I wake up and sit myself in front of my computer and can't write a damn thing. Usually I start crying at some point because nothing will come out of my head. Then I go to bed and have another nightmare about the paper. (I have other nightmares as well to choose from, if I want to. They alternate.)

Whenever somebody proposes something to do, I have two options: decline because I have to write my paper - which amounts to me sitting at home doing nothing, crying occasionally, or accept but have no fun at all because I'm thinking the whole time about how I'm not doing something for my paper (i.e. sitting at home, doing nothing, crying occasionally). So I'm just trying to decide what I'll do. On Tuesday I have a meeting with my counselor and maybe I'll tell them I'll stop doing it and then I'll have to go get a job at Burger King. But frankly, at the moment that seems much more enjoyable.

On top of that (maybe not unrelated) I had a really bad migraine attack yesterday. Go figure.